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May 30, 2012

A Cry from within

I look to you
I look to you
After all my strength is gone
In you I can be strong

God is all in all. He knows everything. He is never late, always on time. I am the clay, He’s the potter. Mould and make me, that’s all I ask. Even when the road is bumpy and the journey looks unending with twists and turns, even when my heart faints , my knees ache and my body feels like I can’t take it any more, when I feel like all my hope is drained. Mighty God, pull me through, carry me, cuddle me because you are all I have, you are all I look up to. I don’t think I have and can ever need someone as much as I need you, mighty King.

I Corinth 10:13 No temptation has seized you except what is common to man. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can stand up under it. (NIV Translation)

In all this, my Redeemer you dropped your word in my heart;
 Psalm 46: 10 "Be still, and know that I am God; I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth."

 Father God, am trying to stay still, am really trying………………..

May 25, 2012

Child Molestation
The above link got me thinking .................................

Several years ago, there were two families, Family A and Family B as depicted above.   The parents of both families were working class and had to leave the children with Child minders cum House helps. However, the minders never stayed for long due to one issue or another. It got to a point where the parents had to resort to leaving the children from both families under the care of the eldest girl of Family B who was aged 12 . The agreement was that parents of Family A would pick their kids in the evening from Family B’s home.
The children got introduced to Pornography. It just showed on their TV. That was the days when you could tap your neighbour's TV dish. The TV stations the neighbour subscribed to had adult stations. The parents in Family B never knew that about this station and so whenever they left the house, the 12 year old girl would put on the TV and voila it was real raw x-rated films. 
The children of both families had to play together and this led to Family B’s son who was about 8 years old (let’s call him DA) always wanting to play “Daddy and Mummy” with the girl from Family A (lets call her ML) who was about 6 years old.  This led to DA fondling, touching and doing all sorts with ML. He wanted to do everything “daddy and mummy” did. ML tried to ward off DA’s touches but never succeeded because he began to bully and threaten ML with words like I’ll never play with you again …..I’ll tell my sisters not to play with you. She couldn’t tell her parents because DA also did the same thing with his younger sister who was about 4 years. Infact, he fondled her breast with his right hand while sucking on his left thumb whenever he wants to sleep. ML thought since the elder sister never stopped him, it must be okay, however, she knew it wasn’t right and never felt comfortable though. She resigned herself to fate.
This dastardly act continued for 7 years till the little girl got addicted .  However, as fate would have it, the families moved to separate parts of the city and so this obscene act stopped.
However, this little girl had grown into a teenager and was addicted. She started sneaking to read her mum’s adult magazine (Hints, Hearts, Dauda the Sexy Guy, Ikebe super e.t.c). The magazines had graphic details on s*x. ML had to resort to masturbation because she needed those sensations. It was a part of her daily life. She needed it for survival. At about age 15years, one day she went on her knees and broke down in tears, cried to God and asked for help to stop this addiction. She knew it was wrong, she knew she was warped. She sought for help from God, knowing she couldn’t do it on her own. She was able to rise up from this addiction but one day about a year after the resolve to stop the porn and masturbation, the urge was so strong she plunged back in.
There was this time she thought it was a case of “spiritual husband”, that she was possessed ….but she knew better. Her innocence had been taken away even before she knew what it meant to be an “innocent child”.
In her mid teens, she miraculously survived two near cases of rape. At one point she had to report one of her supposed “uncles” to his friend who doubled as her mentor. His response was “it is not strange for a man to desire a woman. I therefore see no reason in my friend wanting you”. All through her teenage years she avoided men like a plague and gloried in pleasing herself by herself.
Twenty years after, ML is all grown up and married and hasn’t been able to stop porn and masturbation addiction.  No matter how good the s*x with her spouse is, she needs those touches to reach climax. She’s fighting real hard and though she relapses, she’s not giving up. She knows one day, she will stand tall and conquer this enemy that is warring against her soul.
This is a true life story that has never been shared with anyone except ML’s spouse.   The scars are real.  Child sexual molestation is real.  It needs to stop.  

*Please note that the children where often times together because after school the children of Family A had to stay with Family B until their lesson teacher came at about 4pm. During school sessions DA had unlimited access to ML from about 2pm and during the holidays from about noon till 4pm.
** Till date, ML wonders what happened to her brothers during those years. Did the elder sister of DAML ever molest them as well? It was so bad, she tried over the years to blank out her childhood from her memory, however, the scars in her heart are reminders of a past that has refused to stop haunting. recollects vividly a day she was barely 11 years then, she sprayed perfume “down there” to smell nice for …… and it hurt badly.

May 22, 2012


Faith is unwavering assurance in God that He who has promised is faithful.
Hebrew 10:23 “Let us hold unswervingly to the hope we profess, for he who promised is faithful”
Romans 4: 21 “being fully persuaded that God had power to do what he had promised”
Hebrew 11:1 “Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see”
Faith is walking on the challenges of life with eyes focused only on God.
Matthew 14:28-29 "Lord, if it's you," Peter replied, "tell me to come to you on the water. Come," he said. Then Peter got down out of the boat, walked on the water and came toward Jesus”
Matt 11: 23 "I tell you the truth, if anyone says to this mountain, 'Go, throw yourself into the sea,' and does not doubt in his heart but believes that what he says will happen, it will be done for him”
Faith is knowing that God’s ways are not our ways.  
Numbers 23:19 “God is not a man, that he should lie, nor a son of man, that he should change his mind. Does he speak and then not act? Does he promise and not fulfill?”
 I Corinthians 1: 27 “But God chose the foolish things of the world to shame the wise; God chose the weak things of the world to shame the strong”
Faith says “Be still and know that I am God”
Psalm 46:10 He says, “Be still, and know that I am God; I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth.”

 It's a new dawn
It's a new day
It's a new life
For me
**Bible quotes are from the NIV Translation

May 13, 2012


My joy has come ...... To appoint unto them that mourn in Zion, to give unto them beauty for ashes, the oil of joy for mourning, the garment of praise for the spirit of heaviness; that they might be called trees of righteousness, the planting of the LORD, that he might be glorified. Isaiah 61:3

Be still, and know that I am God: I will be exalted among the heathen, I will be exalted in the earth. Psalm 46:10

It is well......

May 07, 2012


Prayer Points raised by Pastor E.A Adeboye of the Redeemed Christian Church of God during the May Special Holy Ghost Service tagged “Operating Under Divine Favour

1.      That I will praise Him more for all that He has done in His infinite mercies
2.      Father, don’t let me ever annoy you again
3.      Father, please arise for me, for my family, for your church and for my country
4.      Father, don’t let me die before my time
5.      Father, don’t let my dreams of greatness die. Help me to fulfil them
6.      Father, let me shine at home, abroad and everywhere
7.      Father, whatever I touch, please make it prosper
8.      Father, please accelerate my promotion
9.      Father, take me to the very top soon
10.  Father, let me forever operate under divine favour
11.  Your private request